I miss my son Daniel.

We work and raise our families the days are long and the years go by and we wonder have we done enough will we ever meet our own expectations and often we never get an answer.  Then the unthinkable happens we loose a child, my son died in an auto accident over 18 years ago he would have been 36 tomorrow and I ask myself did I give him enough time or did I focus to much on meeting his needs, when really all he ever wanted was me.  Yes I'm afraid working mothers beat themselves up all the time and often there is no right answer because life is fast and furious and while your working and raising your children there is never enough of you to go around and what we really want we can’t have, that is the best life has to offer, however we do the best we can and move forward to prepare our children with what they’ll need to survive in life the best we can. ??I remember someone telling me when a friend or family person dies and you walk up to that casket to pay your respects, you don’t say you wish they’d worked one more day, on the contrary you wish you’d seen them one more time or that you’d called them that week just to say hello because now it’s too late and you’ll never have that chance again. Therefore, when your children come home tonight, take a moment to tell them you love them, ask them how their day went or what they did take time and look into their eyes and let them feel your warmth and commitment to their lives. 

Take a minute to sense if they are anxious or peaceful ask them how things are going and see if they need something you might be surprised at their responses and just asking will make them think about how important they are to you.   

This week I was spending time with William my 14 year old grandson (one of my  seven grandchildren) we were going to see the New Moon.  I was busy and I almost didn’t do it (take the time) then I remembered it was Daniels birthday on  December 12th and I remembered being busy all my life never having the right amount of time I wanted to give my two children things hadn’t changed much in all those years and I took my own advise and there we were, I’d decided not to worry about an errand I thought I had to do or catching up on chores  instead I had the privilege of  enjoying my grandson’s  company and the movie he picked. And guess what I don’t know who had more fun as this stinker dragged his old grandma out to see Vampires and Werewolves in living color and you know who the winner was, it was me.  So I’m hoping you can take this story and apply it to your life and when your old like me you’ll remember the quality times you gave your children after working a job which you had to do, to support your family.  Don’t worry so much about the little things if and when possible give more time to those wonderful kids because they are the most important part of your life.  My son did have a wonderful life with me however, it wasn’t long enough and I could have done more before he died and I’m hoping you’ll hug your children tonight knowing this grandma is thinking of her son Daniel wishing we had more time together, remembering him with all my heart and hoping you’ll enjoy the most important part of your life, your family realizing we never know how much time we’ll have with our children therefore enjoy it while you have them please.

 
Dorothy from grammology
www.grammology.com